"What Grace Did For me" is a very raw and vulnerable look into my walk with the Lord. As a raging introvert, my struggles with fear, self-worth. “Am I good enough?" really dictated my relationship with Christ for years. My tendency to run in the opposite direction of the Lord in my hard times was so opposite of most people but it was always my reaction. I was journaling one day and thought I would write down all those struggles I had, and then I started writing how God has been present in all those things and really, the opposite of all of them. Each line has a story that I can specifically tell of how God carried me through some crazy time in my life. "I fall apart, You pick me up"... "I lose my mind, You put it at ease"..."I'm terrified of almost everything, You tell me that I'm under Your wing"...all those are lines have such powerful meaning to me. I battled anxiety and some depression after my first child was born. I tried so hard to fix it and realized I couldn't do it by myself but through Christ and my amazing husband, whose walk with the Lord is so strong, I was able to say, “Ok, I don't have it altogether. I am human and I need help.” I have always felt inadequate as a singer and worship leader and the fear used to be somewhat paralyzing. For some reason God uses me and my only desire and prayer every time I step foot on stage is to be a conduit to help others enter in a very personal time of worship with Jesus.
After I wrote all those things into my journal and started making it more poetic and lyrical, I just looked at it all and it seemed to make sense that, wow, I finally could see what grace did for me! It became exciting to put it all together. The third verse is really my favorite. It was more of a response to the phrase, "I finally see what grace did for me". Now, I could look past myself and see My Savior for what He is all the time and not for what I need Him to be in my specific circumstances. Isaiah 41:10 says, "Fear not for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand". Verse 13 says, "For I the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you 'fear not, I am the one who helps you". It is the Lord who has shown me grace and saved me from myself!
That is what this song is about for me. I really hope that it will be a comfort to others as they walk through their faith and give the Lord their struggles one piece at a time.
- Gretchen Martin // Worship Leader & Songwriter of "What Grace Did For Me"